Monthly Archives: August 2011

True Freedom?

I had a conversation with a workmate of mine coming home from a show last night. It echoed a conversation I seem to keep having with people-and never at my instigation. I figure since it keeps showing up its time we had a little chat about Freedom.

It’s a funny one isn’t it? For some people Freedom is a financial state. The more money we have the more choices available to us. For others it’s throwing off all social constraints and living off the grid with no one to answer to but themselves. I was recently talking to a lady about a challenging time in her life-her divorce was when she would go out dancing one night a week. She would take to the floor for hours and that one night a week was what kept her going through the stress of it all.

I have learned through my own journey to wellness that for me the only type of freedom that exists in this world is Emotional Freedom. Before I spent the years I did Housebound, back when my life was “normal” I actually felt very trapped. I didn’t like my patterns of behaviour-but it never occurred to me to change them-or even that I could. I didn’t feel happy or fulfilled in my work, but I didn’t see how I could change course at this stage of my life. The years I spent being massively physically restricted actually freed me from my Limiting Thoughts.

You see in my entire life up until that point I’d always trusted everyone else’s opinions way more than my own. Doctors, Newspapers, Peers, it didn’t matter where the information came from, or how it made me feel. I let everyone except me tell me what to do, and how life had to be lived. And all it did was keep me small and unhappy-until the day I was told to expect no sort of real recovery from this physical trap I was in. That no one could help me. That I’d never get the life back I once had. That was the moment everything changed. I knew right then and there that I had to start listening to myself, to that voice inside that told me ever so quietly but firmly that these professionals were wrong. That there were no limits. That I would be ok because there was always an answer and always a way to get better.

Nowadays I feel free all of the time. I have True Emotional Freedom because I always listen to my own instincts. I do not read the papers anymore, or watch the news, or parrot any information others give to me. There is nothing wrong with any of these sources of information-I just know that if I went back to following them then I’d start to believe once again that there are limits in this life. To do so would not serve me in any way. ┬áNow if I do not like where I am or who I am with, or the direction I find myself going in I change course without fear of consequences.

True Freedom for me comes down to this: Two Working Legs, an Open Heart and an Open mind. The World is Mine. There are No Limits.

 

Carrie xx

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